I'm so small.

Have you ever encountered an experience where you are praying and then all of the sudden, in the midst of your prayer, you feel super super tiny?  That's how I feel sometimes.  I think it just proves that God is so great and so much bigger than us.  We are so small and insignificant compared to Him.

I love being small.

My God is a creator, not a duplicator.

So today I was listening to Francis Chan's podcast.  He briefly touched on change, but it really hit hard for me.

Change is biblical.  "He creates all things new."  I think so many times we are afraid of change, but think about it.  I don't want the same experience in my quiet time today as I had yesterday.  I want it to be even better and I want to feel even more intimate with my Lord.  God didn't save me so that I could be the same.  He saved me so that I could be born again.  He wanted me to change.  

God, you are not a duplicator.  You are a creator.  So everyday create something new in me.  Thank you that your mercies are new every morning.  Let me worship you and experience you like I never have before.

This is more important than my nutrition test tomorrow.

My 7:30 alarm clock will most likely be a rude awakening to my somewhat procrastination.  Oh well.

Psalm 91:4 - He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

I just want to take a moment and focus on the first part of this verse.  Especially, "and under his wings you will find refuge."  So many times in my life I have looked for refuge in other places, whether it be friends, music, boys, family, school, etc.  I think you can even go as far to say that often times we look for refuge in church.  People come to church broken and bruised, expecting to be filled with encouragement from fellow believers.  Don't get me wrong, the body of Christ is meant for fellowship and encouragement, but instead of running to earthly things for help, why do we find it so hard to run to God?  He is the one who provides faithfulness that "will be your shield and rampart."  

This is something that has been on my mind a lot lately.  Our loving God wants us to look to Him through all circumstances.  He is our foundation.  He loves us more than we can even imagine and understands and relates to our circumstances more than anyone here on earth is able to.  So the next time I go through a hard time, instead of venting to my friend or the nearest person I can find, I am going to look to God and accept the gift of His open arms.  After all, He is head over heels in love with us.  Why wouldn't I accept that offer?